All that and more

Drop the china,

spill the tea, 

half drunk, 

half left to calm itself,

too cold already.

Jump the threshold,

not bother to check,

even for OCD's sake,

if the door locked itself

as hurriedly I left.

Hop in the car,

put the top gear,

and at once...

get moving...

slow as the traffic allows it,

fast as my heart won't stop racing.

Pull over at the spot too familiar,

forget to pull the handbrake,

jump out of car,

jump over the fence,

a hesitant knock 

on the door that's taking 

a lifetime to open 

Squeeze you in my embrace,

you can't breathe,

I don't need to breathe.

all that and more

and all the more waiting

past my patience

long worn out

all that and more

impossible and beyond

all dreamt but not done

I would 

again and again

each day I spend

away from you

my reason for being unreasonable 

my beloved sanity

I don't miss thee

I don't miss thee